Mama’s Lament
Lord, everywhere I look there is a reminder of my precious girl.
Be near me as I weep over the memory of her beautiful life.
Be close to me as I weep over the lost dreams of the future.
For this pain of mine is not unfamiliar to you. You have experienced loss and grief.
Even as I cry in the middle of the night, darkness is not dark to you. Darkness and light are alike to you. I cannot escape from your Spirit or flee from your presence.
Wherever I go, however I feel, you are there.
When people ask me, “Where is your God?” “Why did this happen?”
I cry out to you looking for the same answers.
Your thoughts are so hard for me to comprehend.
This world is broken, and there is much to be made right.
It is full of pain and suffering. The whole earth groans in longing for your return.
You say that soon you will wipe away every tear from our eyes,
Death will no longer exist;
Grief, crying, and pain will exist no longer, because the things of today will pass away.
You, the one on the throne says, “Look! I am making everything new.”
I reflect on the days I was filled with hope for Emmi’s healing here on earth.
I danced because there were no strings on her!
I sang praise to you as illness was defeated!
I praised you as we were free to begin thinking about a normal life!
Now my heart is gripped with grief because I can no longer hold her hand.
But, I will remind my soul to praise you.
Even though my heart is broken, I will remember you are still good.
In the same way the earth you created longs to be renewed,
I long to dance on heaven’s streets, clothed in a new body, hand in hand with my precious girl.
She now dances free, because there are no strings on her!
She now sings without labored breathing, because she sings alongside angels and all the saints who have gone before.
She is now free to enjoy eternal life in a new and perfect body!
I will remind my soul to praise you.
A Lament for Emmi’s Funeral, February 19, 2020
Echos of Psalm 42, Psalm 139, and Revelation 21
Photo by @capturedmomentsbyangela